Thursday, October 2, 2014

The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly

It's been a rough week.  Everyone has them.  I'm glad mine is almost over.  Sometimes it helps me to just write it all down, get it off my mind, and visually see what it is - and that it's not that bad....so that I can move on.  So, here it is.  The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly of my week.

Valley Rental Center:  Remember that old Lincoln school that we bought?  Yep, it's part of my rough week/month/etc...  It's been a lot of work.  Did I mention I already have a full time job, a part-time job, 2 children and my little jewelry & scarf making "hobby."??!!! 
The Good:  We had four different events held there this past weekend.  Everything went well, and I am so happy that it's being used by our community.
The Bad:  My to-do list is still 500 miles long.  It's overwhelming.  We're plugging away at it, and we'll get there - but there are definitely times when it sucks.
The Ugly:  Have you driven by while I'm painting??!  LOL  It's a bit scary.  There have been times when I've been there for hours, with no break, a stinky sweaty mess...all while 12 feet up in the air painting block walls and endless amounts of trim.  I'm tired of painting.  But that old CAP room (or even older kindergarten room) is looking SO much better!
More Good:  We've had so many amazing compliments from people who have used, seen, or been in our renovated space - and it helps SO much to hear those kind words.  It keeps us going.  It makes our financial investment, and even more importantly all those countless hours of hard work - worth it!  So, thank you!

My kid was almost hit by a car:  Yep, that happened this week.
The Good:  He is fine.  He has guardian angels.  He was able to stop in his tracks and back up just in time.  He is safe - and I thank God for that.  It made me think of his specific guardian angels throughout that whole day - who I believe are family that I miss very much...and I am so thankful to them for keeping him safe.
The Bad:  Someone ran a red light, in front of the school, at 7:55am, and did not even see my son start to cross the street once the sign said "walk."  It happened right in front of me, and my heart nearly left my chest.
The Ugly:  You know, when you're a mom, and all you can think is the worst what-ifs that could ever happen??!!  That was the rest of my morning.  That, and extreme anger.  I'm not a violent person.  I've never punched anyone in my life...but I wanted to that morning.
More Good:  I forgive that person.  If my son had been hurt, I don't know that I could ever say that - and I certainly hope that person has learned a very important lesson and never makes that mistake again.

Stupid health problems:  That truly is how I feel about them...I don't have time for this crap.
The Good:  It could be worse.  I'm still hurting...so that's all the good I can think of right now.  But I am fully aware that others have it so very much worse.
The Bad:  My auto immune disease is back.  The one that I talk about here and followed up on here, has flared up again.  I made it 11 months symptom free and medication free, but now it's back.  It's also been a really rough migraine week.
The Ugly:  I sometimes struggle with depression. Didn't know that?  I hide it well, usually.  But when you're in pain and sick, and then exhausted and overwhelmed...it really tries to rear it's ugly head and strike you down.  So, there have been tears...multiple times.  Only a few people get stuck seeing them though - so the majority of you are probably safe.

Well, I suppose that's all I have.  So, I guess it's not so bad after all.  I feel better about most of it - except for the stupid health problems.  Seriously, I'm totally grouchy about it and probably just need to go to bed in hopes that I'll feel better tomorrow.  And don't bother telling me it's because of "stress" or too much on my plate.  I already know that (see?  I'm so grouchy).

On a lighter note - tomorrow is FRIDAY, which means then comes the WEEKEND, and it's a PINTEREST PARTY weekend....which technically means more work for me (but at least it's fun) - I'm just SO glad to see this week come to an end.  The end.

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

I Have Help

I'm often asked "How do you do all of that?" or "How do you find the time?" or "How do you have the energy to do all you do?".  Well, to put it simply.  I don't.  I don't do all of that.  I don't have or find the time to get it all done.  I certainly don't have the energy to get it all done either.  So, the only logical way to explain how everything APPEARS to be getting done is to simply admit two things. 

#1  It's not "all" getting done.

#2  I have help.

A lot has been happening in our lives over the last month or so, but it hasn't been without a price.  We're making a LOT of progress on our new venture of renovating the former Lincoln Elementary School - now "Valley Rental Center."  There are a lot of changes happening there everyday, but what you don't see is what is NOT happening or "getting done" right now. 

House cleaning, for example.  My house is a total mess.  It still amazes me how you can be home less, but your house gets even dirtier.  We literally just drop and go, drop and go...nearly every day of the week.  It's exhausting, not energizing.  I have no energy to clean my house.  My kids have clean clothes to wear - they just usually have to get them out of a clean clothes basket instead of their drawers right now.  While the dishes are piling up in the sink, there are still clean ones - you just have to get them out of the dishwasher instead of the cupboards.

Family time is another example.  Yes, we are still together as a family as much as we can be with the businesses we run.  Nearly every evening, in fact.  But it certainly looks different right now.  It looks a lot like work.  I pray that during this time of extra hard work, we are teaching our children the payoff of working hard for something.  Using your hands to improve something.  Using your time for a greater good.  ***Don't get me wrong, there are no child labor laws being violated here.  Our kids help as much or as little as they want - and then they play in the gym or on the playground (bonus to this being a former school!).***

Home-cooked meals have been few and far between as we go from our day job to our evening project.  We've had to resort to eating out way more than we prefer to do in an effort to save time (though certainly not saving money).  I am able to throw together a crock-pot meal in the mix once or twice a week, but other than that it's sandwiches/pizza/burgers...it's getting old.

And we won't even get started on the mile-long to-do list that I have for everything else I'd like to get done, but just absolutely do not have time to do.  It's long.  Really, really....long.

So....that brings us to the very important #2.  I have help.  It's probably not the kind of help you might be thinking of.  I don't have a house keeper (though I'd love one).  I don't have someone cooking meals for us (that would be pretty cool though).  And we haven't hired much of the work done on our building so that we can stay home and relax (that would be nice, but we just can't afford it). 

The help we have comes mostly from above.  Not trying to sound cheesy, but God is who brought us to this, and we have to lean on the fact that He will get us through it.  There have been times we've wanted to throw in the towel, or wondered what on earth we did by taking this all on.  But if it wasn't meant to be, it wouldn't be happening.  So, we just keep working.  In the last 39 days (since taking possession of 803 Valley), our plans and work have changed and shifted and grown.  We're following the path we feel we've been given.

We also have the help of some amazing friends and family.  They have helped with their time and physical labor.  They have helped with having our children over to play so that they could have a break while we continued to work.  They have helped by being a sounding board, good listeners, and providing emotional and spiritual support to help us through.

I'm a little emotional sometimes, and take on a lot of stress (though I try to hide it from most).  So, I needed a little "extra" help.  I have found it in the book "Opening the Door to Your God-Sized Dream" by Holley Gerth.  A blogger that I follow on Instagram had posted a picture of it, and I immediately felt drawn to buy the book (which is out of character for me, I'm not much of a reader).  It's 40 days of encouragement for your heart (it says so right on the cover).  It has helped.  A lot.

So - there you have it.  I don't do it all, and I have a lot of help.  But we're going to keep plugging away at it, and we're excited to see what comes of our God-sized Dream.